I was so broken

Prior to attending my first School, yes, I was a Christian, but I was so broken. Childhood and other trauma had taken its toll and I’d spent a large portion of my life depressed. I’d tried self-medicating with alcohol. I was given a few different mental health diagnoses including bipolar disorder and also dissociative identity disorder, but the medications didn’t really work. I spent periods of time in hospital, mental health units and had shock therapy. I’d seen a number of psychologists, many of whom got angry at me because their therapies weren’t making any difference.

I attended my first VMTC Prayer Ministry Training School in April 2021 – that School and my own personal ministry are a bit of a blur, but I walked away different. I now saw Holy Spirit as a person and began to walk in relationship with Him, Jesus, and my Heavenly Father.

I would read the promises in the Bible and could believe that they were written for everyone else on the planet, except for me. At my second School, Holy Spirit challenged me to choose to believe that they were written for me too. Challenge accepted! Part of this involved my looking in the mirror each morning and saying, “I love you.”  This renewing of my mind, to see and accept myself as God sees and accepts me, with Holy Spirit’s help, is an ongoing process. I use the VMTC Pattern of Prayer, the Circle of God’s Love and keep short accounts daily.

A big part of my healing and freedom has come from forgiveness - forgiveness of others, but especially forgiveness of myself.

About 6 weeks ago, I attended my 10th School. I have been medication free for more than 2 years, haven’t seen a psychologist for 3 years, and have been able to return to part-time work in finance and administration. I’m actively involved in my local church and state VMTC leadership. Thank you Lord – all glory to You!

Our God is an Awesome God!